<div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"><iframe width="560" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/GemKqzILV4w" frameborder="0"></iframe><br></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"><br></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"><br></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">열 다섯 살 무렵 한창 리바이스에 아디다스 트랙탑 유행일 때 무슨 병이 도졌는지</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">애들 입고다니는게 그렇게 이뻐보이더라</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">해서 옷 이라곤 '이랜드 주니어'만 고집하던 엄마한테 졸라서</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">리바이스 501 인디고랑 아디다스 져지를 사러 백화점에 갔다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">지금도 키가 작아 (165cm) 고민이지만 당시에는 150대 초반의 키였으니 굳이 언급하지 않더라도 고민의 크기는 다들 짐작할 거다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">게다가 그때는 옷 이라는 것에 대한 개념이 잘 잡혀있지 않았던 시기라</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">입는 사람의 옷걸이가 핏에 지대한 영향을 미친다는 사실을 알고 있을리 만무했다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">여튼 백화점 매장에서부터 뭔가 옷들이 나보다 크다는 것을 어렵풋이 인지만 하고 있었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">바지 역시 무릎 아래로 대충 20센티 가량 기장 수선을 맡겼는데 원래 그정도 줄이는 건 줄 알았다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">여담이지만 바지를 수선하게 되면 상품 본래의 핏이 죽어버리기 때문에 웬만해선 기장 수선을 맡기지 말고</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">자기 다리길이에 맞는 바지만 사라고 하더라...(이게 말이 쉽지 여태 수선하지 않은 바지는 없다.)</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">뭐 암튼 그렇게 처음으로 내 스스로 맘에 들어 엄마에게 졸라서 산 옷들을</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">자랑스레 학원에 입고 갔다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그런데,</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">문제는 여기서부터 였다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">당시 일진이었던 애가 나와 똑같은 바지와 똑같은 트랙탑을 입고 학원에 온 것이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그때부터 뭔가 등골이 오싹해지고 뒷골이 쌔한 기분이 들었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">아니나 다를까 내 직감은 꼭 들어맞았다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">대뜸 나를 본 그 일진놈은 가방을 집어던지기가 무섭게 정확히 내 명치 부분에 프론트 킥을 갈겼다,</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">매서운 한 방이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">순식간에 나는 교실의 중앙에서 뒷편 가장자리까지 내동댕이 쳐져 있었다,</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">순간 뇌리를 스치는 한 마디가 떠올랐다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">"아! 오늘 이렇게 내가 죽는구나..."</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그 한 방으로도 분이 풀리지 않았던지 그 일진놈은 내가 쓰러져 있던 뒷편으로 쏜살같이 다가와</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">내 머리채를 잡고 교실 중앙으로 끌고갔다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">"너 이새끼 앞으로 한 번만 나랑 똑같은 옷 입고 오면 진짜 그땐 죽여버린다 알겠냐!?"</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그는 신고왔던 쓰레빠를 이내 벗어다가 내 정수리를 흠씬 두드리며 내게 엄포를 놓았다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">내가 왜 맞아야 하는지, 걔는 뭐가 그렇게 아니꼬왔는지</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">수치스럽고 창피하고 쪽팔렸다. 아니, 솔직히 말해서 수치심보다 공포심이 더 컸다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">살고 싶었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">어서 이 공간을 벗어나고만 싶었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">한참을 그렇게 열을 내던 그놈은 지쳤는지 날 두드리던 쓰레빠를 내려놓고 숨을 골랐다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">사춘기 남학생이 내뿜은 페로몬의 뜨거운 열기만이 한바탕 폭풍우가 휩쓸고 간 폐허마냥 공허한 교실을 가득 매웠다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">이내 그 적막함을 깨는 한 마디가 내 귓가에 맴돌았다</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">"키 작으면 그런 거 함부로 입지마라. 격 떨어지니까... 이게 내가 널 때린 이유다."</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">내게 그런 수모를 주는 이유가 단지 같은 옷을 입고 와서 인 것으로 짐작하고 있었으나 단순히 그것 만은 아니었다니...</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그가 그렇게 열을 내는 이유가 바로 나 같이 키작고 왜소한 놈들이 자기와 같은 옷을 입으면 격이 떨어진다는 얼토당토 않은 이유에서 였다니...</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">쉽게 납득이 가질 않았지만 더 큰 수모를 겪고 싶은 마음은 추호도 없었기에 아무말 없이 고개를 끄덕였다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">사실 학창시절 다니다 보면 나같이 왜소한 애들은 영문도 모른 채 얻어맞는 경우가 부지기수인데</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">친히 나를 때린 이유에 대해 나름의 이유를 들어 설명을 하니 황송할 따름이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">잠깐이나마 내가 맞았다는 게 정당하다고 느껴지기까지 했다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">마치 내가 대의를 위해 핍박받고 희생당한 순교자가 된 것 같은 기분이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">하지만 그 뿐 이었다...</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">암튼 그렇게 지옥과도 같은 시간이 지나고 그는 수업을 받으러 다른 교실로 갔고</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">교실에는 나 혼자만이 덩그러니 남아 교실 가득 채운 폭행의 흔적들을</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">넌지시 바라보고만 있을 뿐 이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">한동안 어지럽혀진 교실을 바라만 보다가 도저히 수업받을 기분이 나질 않아 집으로 돌아가고 싶은 욕구가 샘솟았다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그저 내방 침대에 누워 하얀 벽지의 천장을 바라보고 싶은 마음 뿐 이었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그렇게 원장에게 말도 없이 집으로 향하는 길에 뭔가 명치 쪽에서부터 올라오는 매스꺼림을 느꼈다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">금방이라도 거리에다 토악질을 할 것 만 같았다. 아니 그러고 싶었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그렇게 해서 내 스스로 순교라고 받아들이고 싶었던 좀 전의 일을 게워내고 싶었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">가로수에 기대 서서 크게 한 번 숨을 고른 나는</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">이내 이차돈이 순교할 때 내뿜었다는 하얀 피 마냥</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그것들을 쏟아냈다. 있는 힘껏 쏟아냈다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">개운했다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">천근 처럼 무겁게 느껴지던 채증이 내려간 듯 시원하고 개운했다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그 수모를 애써 잊으려 노력하지 않아도 자연스레 잊게 될 것만 같아 실성한 듯 입꼬리가 올라갔다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그렇게 집으로 돌아온 나는 좀 전의 흔적을 조금이나마 지우기 위해 옷을 벗어놓고</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">욕조에 누웠다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그리고 벗어 놓은 옷 가지 들을 보며</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">이 모든 사건의 발단이 된 그 옷들에 대해 내 나름의 합리적인 이유를 대가며 장롱 속에 쳐박아 두어야 겠다고 마음 먹었다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그렇게 그때의 기억은 내 가슴 깊숙한 심연의 밑바닥에 깔리게 됐다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">허나, 이따금씩 나와 비슷한 옷치레를 한 건장한 남성들을 마주칠 때면 그때의 기억이 송곳처럼 솟아 나를 찔러댄다.</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">그 통증은 익숙하지만 썩 유쾌하지는 않은</div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"> </div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;"></div> <div style="margin:0px;padding:0px;max-width:100%;font-size:16px;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6000003814697px;">평생 무감각해 지지는 않을 어린 날의 회상 때문이겠거니 하고 받아들인다.</div>