I know that you don't want to know me anymore and hate me, but please read this message till end....
Everything is gone. Is too late. But I have to tell you one thing-I REGRET ALL WHAT I DO WITH MY LIFE!!!!!!
I miss you so much!!!! I can't sleep at night. All time thinking about you...I feel so horribly bad. Heavy. Sad. Frustrated. Lost. Empty. And scared that I lost everything what I trully wanted...
If I could turn back time...
I would do everything to be with you again!
I will live with that lost all my life! And I know that and it horrify me.
People says, that doughter always goes in mothers way. My mother all her life remind her biggest love. She can't forget it, and inside her soul she regret many things. I always though to never make same mistake. But I did. 
Now I feel like someone would die. Or like I would dieing slowly.
I hurt you, disappoint you, upset you, make you angry, lied, and all the worst thing. I am monster. I don't know how could I did all this things for you. For the person which I care so long!
But I got all your bad feelings back now. 
And I can't live normal. Every morning I waking up and start thinking about my weist life. And its so painful. It choking. And my mind is, that I will feel that way all my long life which is still foward me...many long years....
I know that I will not change anything, because I burn everything. But I needed you to know that you can feel happy now, because I am suffering because of myself. I hate myself same like you hate me now.
Im so sorry about everything....
I will always have you in my heart. You are like root of strong tree which I can get out of my soul.
I still love you. 
God, I would give everything to turn back the time.........................................................................................
At least please forgive me in your heart....

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