<p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뿌연 수혁이를 만나다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">]</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아 이건 아니잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!?'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">와이프와 둘은 반가움을 표시하며 이야기 하고 웃음소리가 퍼지는데 내 귀에는 들리지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">잠깐 시간이 멈췄다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">소리도 보이는 것도</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">내 숨소리마저 세상 모든 것이 멈추어 버렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">셋의 하하 호호 소리에 묻혀 세상에서는 아무 일도 없는 것 같이 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 다급하게 내 안의 목소리에게 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이게 무슨 일이예요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이거 아니잖아요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">목소리는 아무 대답이 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">수혁이 빛이 왜 뿌옇냐구요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!!!'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">대답없는 목소리가 너무 답답해서 속으로 소리를 질렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">순간 내 귀에 압력이 차올라 먹먹한 느낌이 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">제발 대답 좀 해주세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">왜 저렇게 된건데요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">몇 번을 물어도 목소리는 아무 대답이 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">설마 진짜 수혁이 살인을</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">눈물이 눈을 따라 맺히는 게 느껴졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그때 누군가 내 어깨를 퍽 쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐하고 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">먹으러 나갈 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">집으로 들어갈 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">밥 먹으러 가자</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!" </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">내 정신이 다시 돌아오게 해 준 것은 수혁이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 잠깐 딴생각하느라</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하하 그래 어디 갈까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">오라고 난리칠 땐 언제고 오니까 뭘 멍 때리고 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">박상 말에 한 번 더 정신이 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">밖에 나가서 먹기로 하고 걸어가는데 수혁이가 회색으로 뿌옇게 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">먹는 게 먹는 것 같지도 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">분명 우리는 하하 호호 하고 있는데 내 귀 바깥에서 들려오는 외부 소리의 볼륨보다 내 생각의 볼륨이 훨씬 큼을 느꼈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이건 분명 무슨 일이 있는 건 확실한데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 왜 하필 뿌연색이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐라고 물어야 하지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">사람을 죽였냐고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아니 물어야 하는게 맞나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">일이 있다 해도 지금은 아닌 것 같다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">여기서 갑자기 사람을 죽였다고 하면 내가 어떻게 할거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?' </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">머릿속이 복잡했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">제발 별일 아니길 바랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">생각을 그만하자고 생각하며 난 인상 쓰고 있던 미간을 펴고 입꼬리를 빵끗 올렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">얼굴을 펴니까 마음속 생각도 조금 줄어드는 느낌이 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇게 그날은 지나가고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">다음날</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">자고 일어나보니 수혁이가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">화장실 갔나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?' </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">어제 과음을 해서 머리가 깨질 것 같았지만 흠씬 두들겨 맞은 것 같은 몸을 일으켜 주위를 둘러보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아 혹시 담배</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?' </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 현관문을 열고 나가보니 뿌연 회색의 수혁이가 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">수혁아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">너 뭔 일 있지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">엄</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">너 어떻게 알았어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그 목소리가 알려줬어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아무리 그래도 사람을 죽이면 안 되지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">임마</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 말하고 싶은 것을 꾹 참고 최대한 침착하게 심호흡을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그러자 수혁이가 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 회사 짤렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..." </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">한숨을 쉬고 수혁이는 고개를 푹 떨구었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐야 이거</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">사람을 죽인게 아니었어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">순간 온몸으로 안도감이 밀려왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">회사를 짤려</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그만 둔 것도 아니고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아니 그런다고 색깔이 뿌옇게 변해</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아니 뭐라 말 좀 해주세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">내 안의 목소리님</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그 때 드디어 기다리던 그 목소리가 들려왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-weight:bold;font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;color:#972f78;">[</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;color:#972f78;">죽고 싶은 마음이 들면 색이 뿌옇게 변한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;color:#972f78;">.]</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그런거였어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">속으로 해야 할 말이 실수로 육성으로 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">수혁이가 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하아 나 이제 어떡하냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?" </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아 난 또 사람죽인 줄 알았잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 진짜 어제부터 지금까지 마음고생 얼마나 했는 줄 아냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">어쨌든 왜 그렇게 됐는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">수혁이는 자동차 관련 큰 회사에 다닌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 코로나의 여파로 인원을 감축하는데 자기 팀은 딱 필요인원만 있어 괜찮을 거라 생각했다고 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">명 중 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">명은 독일로 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">년간 파견을 가야한다 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">유일하게 결혼하지 않아 가정이 없는 수혁이가 가야했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">자세히 물어볼 수 없었지만 독일 가는 것이 파견이라 쓰고 퇴사라 이해하면 되는 개념 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 그게 언젠데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 요즘 놀아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">언제부터</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">몇 주 됐어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그래도 그쪽 업계에서 너 정도 짬밥이면 아무 곳이나 갈 수 있는 거 아냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">조금만 기다리면 좋은 소식 있겠지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">지금 매출이 전체적으로 떨어져서 쌍</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">도 우리나라에서 철수한다고 하고 파이 자체가 줄었어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">계속 알아는 보고 있고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">주변 사람들도 알아봐준다고 하는데 사람을 구하는 데도 없고 연락이 오는데도 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그정도야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">신일아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 어떡하냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">진짜</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">죽고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇게 난 수혁이의 눈물을 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">번째로 보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아 이런 마음을 먹어도 색이 그렇게 될 수도 있구나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">꼭 남을 죽이는게 아니라 내가 내 스스로를 죽이는 마음만으로도 뿌옇게 되다니</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.’</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">야 너 색이 뿌옇게 보여</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그러니까 안 뿌옇게 되게 마음 좀 좋게 바꿔 먹어봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">." </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">할 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 실제로 내가 저 경험을 해보지 않았기 때문에 그냥 옆에 앉아 있어 주는 것 말고는 해줄게 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">집에만 있는 것보다 움직이고 하다보면 또 때가 오겠지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!'</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">맞다 그럼 너 집에다가는 말했냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">걱정하시게 뭘 말해</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그냥 출근시간에 밖에 나와 있는 거지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">밖에서 담배만 핀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. PC</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">방도 가고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이런 우울한 얘기를 하는 수혁이는 이곳에 있는동안 계속 뿌옇게 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">며칠 후</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">일 끝나고 보니 부재중 전화가 와있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">다시 전화를 거니</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">엄</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 취직 됐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">아는 형이 뭐라뭐라</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...."</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐하는덴데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">차지 뭐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">" </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하하하 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 웃긴 얘기 해줄까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">나 이제 과장이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!" </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">수혁이는 더 나은 직급과 연봉으로 같이 일했던 선배가 먼저 가있던 회사에 스카우트 되어 가게 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 다시 만났을 때 수혁이의 색은 또렷하게 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 알 수 없는 세상 일이 많은 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 내 안의 목소리님</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이거 정황상 다 알고 계시는 것 같은데 마음고생 안하게 미리 좀 알려주면 안 됩니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">여튼 잘 되어서 다행이라는 생각이었고 다시는 하고 싶지 않은 경험이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 이상하게 점점 눈물이 많아지는 것은 내가 마음이 약해져서인지 일이 커진 건지 알 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">시간이 지남에 따라 점점 더 일도 많아지고 그에 따라 알아가는 게 많아지고 있는 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">오른팔과 왼팔 등장</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">]</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">어느 날 대학 후배 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">명에게 연락이 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이 둘과는 원래 친하게 지내고 같이 단톡방이 있어 간간이 소식을 전했는데 내가 대학 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 때 아버지 사업이 망한 후 나를 잘 챙겨준 동생들이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">하나는 남자 하나는 여자</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">남자애는 축구선수 기성용을 닮아 성용이라 하고 여자애는 실루엣만 김혜수와 흡사해 혜수와 성용이이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">이 성용이 혜수와 내가 있는 톡방은 조용하다가 누가 한번 말을 쓰는 순간</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p> </p><div class="hwp_editor_board_content"></div> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;font-size:11.3pt;">일간 쉬지 않고 작동한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"> </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:HelveticaNeue;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"> </span> </p> <p style="background:#ffffff;"> <font face="HelveticaNeue"><span style="font-size:15.0667px;">다음편</span><br><span style="font-size:15.0667px;"><a target="_blank" href="https://blog.naver.com/dakiup/223382455654">https://blog.naver.com/dakiup/223382455654</a></span></font> </p>
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