<div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">안녕하세요,  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">이 글을 쓰기 위해 다이어트 게시판과 고민 게시판을 고민하다가 고민게시판으로 왔습니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">다이어트 게시판은 이미 운동을 하고 계시는 분들이 많으니 제 이야기가 필요하신 분도 많지 않을거라 생각했어요.   </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">이야기를 풀어나가기에 또 하나 앞서 당부드리는건 저는 '다이어트를 목적으로 굶기를 시작한게 아니라는 사실'이에요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">하지만 그럼에도 불구하고 굶어서 살을 뺀 사람, 이라는것 역시 사실이고, 이건 저에게 여전히 불명예(?)스러운 일이죠.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><u><font color="#262626">굶기만 한다는거, 사실은 다이어트계의 게임 치트키 같은거거든요.</font></u></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">치트를 쓰면 노력없이 쉽게 살이 빠져요. 그것도 아주 다이나믹하게요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">하지만 치트를 쓰면 행복하느냐, 그건 아니거든요. 노력하지 않은 댓가라는게 있으니까요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">저는 그 댓가에 대해  이야기 하려고 합니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">제 굶음의 역사는 고1때 시작됩니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">저는 건강하게 살아왔어요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">어렸을땐 좀 통통해서 초등학생 5학년때 허리가 29인치였던 적도 있었구요. (어린이 기준으론 과체중이었습니다.)  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그런 제가 중학교를 졸업한 겨울에 치아 교정을 하게 되는데,  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">해보신 분들은 다 아실테지만 처음  교정장치를 장착하면 아무것도 못먹어요. 씹는 행위 자체가 불가능해요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그래서 오직 <b>스프+우유+영양제</b> 만으로 한달 식생활이 이루어 졌어요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ지금 생각하면 살아있는게 용합니다  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그 식사도 삼시세끼 먹었던게 아니고, 아점으로 한번, 점저로 한번, 이렇게 두번먹었던걸로 기억해요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그래서 고등학교 입학할때쯤에는 아마 55Kg인가, 그랬을거에요.  키는 160정도. 정상체중이죠.   </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">이후로 학기중에 수술을 위해 2주간 입원합니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"> 근데 병원밥이 입에 안맞고 배는 엄청 아프네요. <b>굶습니다.</b>    </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">고2 초반에 애인이랑 헤어집니다.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">비련의 주인공, 스트레스로 식욕을 잃습니다. <b>굶습니다. </b> </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그래서 그 해에 체력측정했을때  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><b><u>키 162에 몸무게 45kg</u></b>을 찍습니다. 허리는 24인치가 됐어요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">이런 과정을 통해 저는 2년전에 샀던 교복 치마가 흘러내려서 핀을 찔러서 고정시켜야할 지경이 됐습니다.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">과체중에서 저체중까지, 체계적인 운동없이 도달했네요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="color:#262626;font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><br></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="color:#262626;font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;">그에 따른 댓가는 아래 다섯가지정도로 요약이 가능해요.  </span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><u><font color="#262626">1. 이명현상.  </font></u></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">조금만 뛰어도  귀가 멍멍해지고 삐이이-하는 소리가 강하게 납니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">오르막길이라도 오르면 쓰러질것 같아요. 귀는 울리지, 심장은 펌프질을 못하지. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">몸은 알아요, 이 상태라면 위험하다는거. 그래서 경고신호를 계속 보내는거죠.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">하지만 저는 무시했습니다. 그러지 말았어야 했는데.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><u> 2. 기립성 저혈압+빈혈</u> </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">아침에 일어나서 이따금 방바닥에 쓰러지게 됩니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">기립성 저혈압은 마냥 어지러운걸로 안끝나고  시야가 새까매지면서 중심을 잃어요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">시야가 돌아오기 시작할때쯤에 보이는건 바닥입니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">이거 잘못해서 책상 모서리에 관자놀이라도 박으면 죽어요. 실제로 겪어봤습니다.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><u>3. 생리 불순.</u></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><u><br></u></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font face="Roboto Slab, Times New Roman, serif" color="#262626"><span style="font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;">여자로서는 정말 불안한 일이에요.</span></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font face="Roboto Slab, Times New Roman, serif" color="#262626"><span style="font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;">저는 이러한 거식기간동안 길게는 4개월 정도 생리를 걸렀습니다. </span></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><br></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><u> 4.  일상 생활 불가.</u> </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">당연한 이야기긴 한데, 당연한 동시에 이게 제일 심각해요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">청소시간에 책상 미는것도 힘들어서 허덕였어요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그냥, 일상생활이 힘들어요. 집에 가는것도 힘들어요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">힘들다 보니 잠이 늘어요. 일상생활과 학업이 안됩니다. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">굶어서 살빼면 먹고 자는것 외에는 다 힘들어진다고 보면 돼요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">체육시간에도 수술했던걸 핑계로 혼자 교실에 남아있는 날이 많았어요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">몇십분 뛰고 놀다보면 다음수업때는 기절하듯 자게되니까.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><u><font color="#262626"> 5. 살에 대한 두려움. </font></u></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">노력없이 빠진 살인데, 주변사람들은 다들</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">'너 예뻐졌다',</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"> '다이어트 열심히 했나봐~',</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"> '날씬한거 부럽다' 이렇게 말해요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">난 그냥 굶은것 뿐인데 사람들은 부러워 하니까, <b>한편으로는 무언의 거짓말을 하고있는것 같은 죄책감이 들어요. </b></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">더불어 여기서 살이 쪄버리면 <b>더이상 사람들이 나를 칭찬해주지 않으리라는 불안감이 들어요. </b></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그래서 몸무게를 유지하려고 계속 영양소가 부족한 식단을 유지하죠. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><b><font color="#262626">마지막에는 사과 한쪽을 먹어도 칼로리를 계산하고 살이 찔까봐 무서워해요. </font></b></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">실질적인 노력은 하나도 하지 않으면서 굶는것을 계속하게 됩니다. 악순환이 반복됩니다.   </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"> 글재주가 없어서 잘 와닿지 않네요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">하지만 저는 이러한 것들로 인해 망가졌어요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">저는 <b>이런 '거식증'에 가까운 행동을 누군가는 부러워한다는 것은 기형적이다,</b>라고 말하고 싶어요.  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">작은 옷을 입고 당당하게 걸어도 </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">생활 자체는 반 죽은 상태로 지속하고  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">매일 내 팔뚝을 손으로 그러쥐어 보고,  </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">얇은 다리를 더 얇게 만들고 싶어하고,</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">작게 산 옷들이 내일이면 맞지 않을 까봐 연거푸 입었다 벗었다를 반복하는건</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">절대로 아름다움이 아니에요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">만일 누군가가 굶는것 만으로 살을 뺀다면</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">과거의 제가 영위했던 비정상적인 생활과 가까워 지겠죠.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">나를 사랑할 줄 모르고</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">남의 시선에 신경쓰느라 다른것은 보지 못하는, 그런 비정상이요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"> </font></span><div style="text-align:left;"><img src="http://thimg.todayhumor.co.kr/upfile/201509/1441358766mfM2vMLk3uPmitk7xqVrntB6T.jpg" width="800" height="592" alt="eb2891c3a0e64070cfef4aa3e19d3dde11.jpg" class="chimg_photo" style="border:none;"></div><br></div> <div style="text-align:left;"> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">위의 인바디 검사를 보면 아시겠지만 지금은 건강합니다. 올해 봄쯤에 했던 검사 같네요.</font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">정상체중이구요, </font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">최근에 또 스트레스를 받아서 식생활을 제대로 못하고 있긴 하지만</font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">과거의 저 처럼 살에 목을 메지는 않아요.</font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">다만 매 끼니마다 칼로리를 계산하는 버릇은 고치기가 힘들더라구요.</font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">저절로 칼로리 계산기가 윙윙 돌아가는건 그냥 순응하기로 했습니다.</font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">그러니까 여러분,</font></span></div></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">굶어서 살 빼지 말아주세요. </font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">자기 자신을 사랑한다면.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">아니, 사랑하고 싶으시다면</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">제발 굶지 마세요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">우리는 '저체중이 미덕인 사회'에서 살고 있어요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">하지만 저는 그 미덕은 옳지 않다고 생각합니다.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">진정한 미덕은 자기 존중과 자기애에서 나오는거에요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">제가 겪은바로는, 그렇습니다.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">여기까지 입니다.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626">여러분, 행복하세요.</font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><font color="#262626"><br></font></span></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><span style="font-family:'Roboto Slab', 'Times New Roman', serif;font-size:14px;line-height:19px;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:#fafafa;"><br></span></div>